To every guy...

"'Cause I know you're out there . . .

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her."

...This post is for you... wherever you are.. if you still exist somewhere...

Parece que no tuviera nada que hacer...

Cuatro días sin ti...

Cuatro días sin ti, sin tu manera,
sin tu voz ni tu gesto...
Cuatro días de ausencia
en tu recuerdo
Desde el jueves aquel en que te fuiste
húmeda de besos,
yo estoy aquí a la sombra de mí mismo,
Contándome los dedos.
Tan cerca para mí,
pero tan lejos para poner
sobre tu boca un beso.
Tan cerca para mí,
en mi recuerdo,
y yo tan solo y frío,
tan lánguido y tan tierno...

Ayer me fui hasta el mar
a ver un buque y a estirar mi sueño,
por tal de recordar aquellas noches
de amor, frente a un lucero...

Ayer me fui hasta el mar...
Y el mar, ah, que pequeño
para la angustia enorme
que no me cabe dentro...

Cuatro días de ausencia para los dos.
Cuatro días sin vernos,
con tanta soledad
y tanto miedo...
Tú tan pequeña allá bajo la luna
de otra casa, otro patio, otro silencio.
Y yo tan grande aquí, frente a los ojos
de los que pasan por el puerto...

Cuatro días sin ti, sin tu manera,
sin tu voz ni tu gesto...
Cuatro días sin sol en mi camino
Cuatro noches de invierno...

-J.P.L.M.-

New Moon...

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason.... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

-Edward Cullen - (New Moon by Stephenie Meyer)

Coldplay - A Message

What a stupid, stupid lamb...

I'm not feeling so good today. God, I... damn it!!! I just wanna crawl into a dark corner and stay there and be alone and not see or listen to anyone. Because the only fucking person I want to see...

Stop. I don't want to think, specially not about that.

I'm just gonna lie here, alone, complete. Not think, just breathe. Not move, just be, here, now. Nothing else exists. There's no past, no future. Just this instant, just this one breath.

I'm not afraid to feel, to love... I should not be scared. Nothing will happen if I lose, nothing will happen. I'm still going to be me, this crazy, bright, intense, beautiful, passionate woman. And I won't have any regrets because I did what I wanted and I didn't hold back anything I wanted to give or say or do.

But, well, I am sad today...

"And I lie here in bed all alone... I can't mend what I feel. Tomorrow will be ok..."

Yeah, this too shall pass...

o.O

I think I'm way too innocent... or naive... for my own good. Shit, I don't know what I'm doing... I'm playing with fire and I'm gonna get burned.

I don't like to play mind games...

Please, don't play with me... please, don't hurt me. I don't deserve this and you know it.

What if I have already lost?

Art and life...

You know, I sometimes feel like I'm missing something... like there was this potential in me and I just haven't been able to even reach the edge of that ocean of creativity. And I always feel that when I find an artist that inspires me and see a glimpse of his or her mind.

It happened this time because of Brandon Boyd, vocalist of Incubus. I have wanted to buy his books for a long time now but still haven't had the chance. And so I was surfing around his website and stumble into his auto-sort-of bio. And his words struck something inside of me, that feeling I'm talking about. To read him talk about himself, his life, his art... I don't know why but it reminded me of something I still can't put my finger on.

"My life, as it were, is not unlike one of my drawings; a continually evolving, bulbous, mass of thought, after-thought, absurdity, intention and enthusiasm. Scribbled happily in ink without pencil lines and signed at the bottom." -Brandon Boyd-

It's really annoying 'cause I feel like I'm not living my life at all, like I'm just sitting on the edge of myself, contemplating me without jumping into life and bursting into a million colors and sounds.

But I don't know how to jump into it. I feel rusty and stiff. Still, I know I want to jump... hell, I'm gonna jump anyway. I know this artist in me is gonna wake up someday, like it has in the past and then go back to slumber, fermenting ideas and images until they are ready to flow out from my fingers... and come alive.

¡Se busca!

Si alguien lo encuentra y me lo trae, recibirá una gran recompensa! jajaja

(Tenía que ponerlo, jijiji)

Soy el jaguar que ve...

¿Sabes? Estaba observando la foto del jaguar que tengo aquí en el blog y me di cuenta de lo hermoso que es. Esas manchas que parecen de tinta negra, creando patrones aparentemente al azar, pero que forman una unidad coherente y armónica. Ninguna mancha sabe el papel que juega dentro de la totalidad de la piel del jaguar pero ahí está, ocupando un espacio que le pertenece sólo a esa mancha, formando parte del todo.

Nada ocurre porque sí. Al menos yo creo que podemos hacer de toda experiencia algo significativo en nuestras vidas, que nosotros le damos sentido a los que nos ocurre. Pero independientemente del sentido que nosotros les demos a esas experiencias, creo que tienen otro significado más allá, algo que no entenderemos hasta después, cuando volteemos a ver el patrón que formó nuestra vida. Sólo entonces comprenderemos muchas cosas, como las repercusiones de las decisiones que tomamos, o que decidimos no tomar.

Aunque a veces no hay que esperar tanto para entender... O más bien, tal vez no sea tan importante entender como experimentar, sumergirnos en el océano de nuestra vida, con todo y miedos, y empaparnos en ella. Quien sabe, tal vez ahí encontremos la razón de nuestra existencia... y si no, ¿qué importa? Al menos dejamos que la Vida nos llegara hasta los huesos... al menos nos lanzamos a lo profundo y nos atrevimos a amar.

"Only love can free us from the womb of time..." -Azam Ali-

You don't know what you are missing... ;)

How can I feel so sad and, at the same time, feel this serenity inside of me? Is that what it feels like when you know you have done everything you could, even though at the end things didn't work out the way you wanted them?

It feels wrong somehow, to have lost something that was just starting and looked so promising.

It is such a shame... we could have been great together... but your demons and dragons won this time. Only time will tell what will come out of this...

Fear...

"Los Dragones Negros del miedo son poderosos..."


Mira, la vida te está dando otra oportunidad... en medio de todo el dolor, la oscuridad y el caos, te ha traído luz... ¿Qué esperas para caminar hacia ella? ¿O prefieres quedarte ahí donde estás? ¿Vas a dejar que el miedo te paralice y se vaya esa luz?

You don't have to hurry... you just have to make the choice and start moving, slowly if you want, towards the light. But make that choice, choose Life. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to be loved. Conquer your fears. CHOOSE LIFE.

Believe? ha!

Why should I?

Every time I take a step towards hope you send another poisoned arrow into my heart...

Before you swim you've gotta be ok to sink...

"Earth to Bella
This is a quiet emergency
Earth to Bella
There's so much more to get then wronged....

Earth to Bella
You're treading water successfully
But are you really?
Don't you want to see the deep?
It's not so hard
Just forgive yourself and feel the water open in..."

How can just a few words hurt so much? And how can silence hurt to? There are so many things I don't understand. But why should I care? Why do I have to care so fucking much?

¿Para qué sirven las decepciones? Si uno toma la decisión de aprender de ellas, sirven para crecer, para conocerse más a uno mismo y a los demás.

Just let it go... let it go... let yourself go... feel the knot disolve and go away... there are no chains anymore, nothing remains. There's nothing in here but me, only me... no one else. I am alone.

And I am tired...

Sarah Mclachlan - Elsewhere (with Paula Cole)

Esta canción y la anterior son mis canciones de batalla en estos momentos de mi vida.
Nunca había escuchado esta versión y la amo! Sarah McLachlan y Paula Cole son dos de mis cantantes favoritas. woohoo!!

He aquí la letra:

I love the time
and inbetween
the calm inside me in the space
where I can breathe

I believe there is a distance
I have wandered to touch upon the years of
reaching out
and reaching in
holding out
holding in.

I believe
this is heaven
to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as
I can be
left here to linger
in silence
if I
choose to
would you
try to
understand.

I know this love
is passing time
passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire
but I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and
hold me near..

I believe..

I believe
this is heaven
to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as
I can be
left here to linger
in silence
if I
choose to
would you
try to
understand.

Oh the quiet child
awaits the day
when she can break free
the mold that clings like desperation.

Mother
can't you see I've got to
live my life the way I feel is
right for me
might not be right for you but it's
right for me..

I believe...

I believe
this is heaven
to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as
I can be
left here to linger
in silence
if I
choose to
would you
try to
understand it.

I would
like to
linger
here in
silence
if I
choose to
would you
try to
understand...

Fumbling Towards Ecstasy live (Mirrorball dvd)

All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore.
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh.
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath

and if I shed a tear I won't cage it.
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it.
I won't fear love.

Companion to our demons
they will dance and we will play.
With chairs candles and clothes
making darkness in the day.
It will be easy to look in or out
upstream or down
without a thought

and if I shed a tear I won't cage it.
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it.
I won't fear love.

Peace in the struggle to find peace.
Comfort on the way to comfort

and if I shed a tear I won't cage it.
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love.
I won't fear love.
I won't fear love...

Feeling Good: Live At Wembley Stadium 2007

I LOVE this song!!!

A year later...

Wow, it's already been a year since that fateful october when I started to change and move my life forward. So many things have happened since, some extremely good, some really bad but good in the end, since they are all lessons I needed, and still need, to learn. So many chains I have broken, some are still here, not letting me move freely. There's still so much fear and insecurity in my bones but they are so much stronger at the same time... and wiser.

I know who I am but I'm such a complex and sometimes contradictory creature that I get lost in myself now and then and feel confused. But this is who I am, and I am beautiful and strong and bright. I'm full of love and light and darkness, of passion and fire, of anger and pain and laughter. My soul is a universe of symbols and stars, forests and stories, yearnings, despair and hope... and sometimes only silence.

Yes, it's been one of the most interesting years of my life and I have never felt so alive.

P.S.: this october has been pretty good too. I just love this freaking month.

I hear your voice in the wind...

What's this desire that burns me up from the inside?
I don't know you, yet I have known you for centuries...

I yearn to look into your eyes again,
to see your love for me in there setting my soul on fire,
to feel your arms around me, your lips crushing mine...

But you are not here, not where I can touch you, nowhere near me yet...

And I despair...

What the hell?

Ok, you start to think that something must be really wrong when the alternate, imaginary life that you have so carefully constructed sucks just as much as your real life. What the hell am I talking about, you may wonder.... but nevermind, just believe me, everything is a double mess when not even your imagination lets you escape into a wonderful, perfect world. In fact, it sucks when that alternate life is depressing you just as much as your "real" one... or even more. Oh, well, that's what I get for wanting something so bad. I feel like screaming and punching something, which I probably won't do unless I put on some howling music to tear my throat. Ok, Im gonna stop now with the nonsense.

Just one more thing: I'm so hating him right now. I just want to slap some sense into his invisible brain...
(One of the greatest lines in a movie in the history of the world deserves to be put in here: YOU FUUUCK!! YOU FUCKING FUCK!! YOU FUCKING FUUUUCCCKKK!!! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!??! -Lord of War, courtesy of Jared Leto's beautiful acting.)

Nonsense mode = OFF

Got to remember this always...

• No te contentes con menos de lo que realmente deseas.
• Cuídate de aceptar ofrecimientos de seguridad y tranquilidad a expensas de tu propia libertad creadora. Tan pronto cambies tu libertad por la ilusión de la seguridad, te será difícil recuperar esa libertad.
• Sigue el impulso de tu corazón y recibirás bendiciones y favores inesperados.

Numb - Linkin Park - Lyrics

For the ones who brought me to this world...

I don't want history to repeat itself... Not again.

Sus pisadas recorren los pasillos
Escucho sus oídos ávidos de palabras,
buscando rarezas en la rutina,
sospechando en los rincones de la casa.

Me escondo bajo las sábanas
rezando para que mi voz muera en el aire
y así poder hablar sin miedo.

Despierto en la misma habitación.
De nuevo me cubro con la mentira
pero no puedo evitar derramar esta sal líquida
que me arde por dentro.

Esos pasos me atormentan.
Resuenan en mi cabeza como truenos.
Espero aterrada el momento
en que vuelva a escucharlos gritar,
en que sienta sus voces desgarrando
mi vida de nuevo, como papel...
en que vuelva a ver mi sangre
embarrada en sus manos
y ya no pueda respirar más...

_______________________________________________________

Escribí este poema hace 5 años. ¿Cómo es posible que esté volviendo a sentir exactamente lo mismo tanto tiempo después? ¿Todo este tiempo que ha pasado no ha servido para nada entonces? Creo que he estado haciendo mal las cosas... muy mal.

"So I stop talking and fade to bleak,
feeling insignificant, atrophied and weak.
Even though it's not who I know myself to be,
The Queen, the Confidence,
doesn't speak...

Your words they bring hurricanes.
Braving Shakespearean tempest,
The Mighty Tiger,
doesn't blink...

So I stop talking cause you always want me to shut up.
Take the center stage meanwhile I become your trusted, silent prop.
So take good care, this mighty woman's ready to explode,
Fire here below the surface of my volcano."

-Paula Cole, "14" lyrics

I don't ever want to feel this terrible and paralizing fear again. I cant allow myself to bow my head again, not again. Not anymore... I need to transform this panic in strength somehow. I have to be strong, as strong and constant as a mountain. The hurricane will have to get tired someday and realize that it cant do nothing against me.

And life still sucks... bigtime...

It just keeps getting worse. What the fuck is wrong?!?!?! oooh, but I know exactly what is wrong... the problem is how the hell can I fix it when I'm still so mad!! crazy-mad, seeing-all-red mad! How the fuck can I talk to someone who doesnt want to listen? who thinks everything they do is right and everything I do is wrong!?!? who systematically makes me feel like shit, like I have no worth and am not capable of thinking for myself? Someone who thinks I am selfish for wanting to do my life???

They are drowning me!! I cannot breathe!! Please, just stop it!! YOU ARE KILLING ME!!!!

Life sucks... (II)

...and then, not so much.

I can see now. The black film that was covering my heart is gone. Yeah, this is just a game, a beautiful lie, sometimes not so beautiful, sometimes it feels like it's the truth... but it is not.

I just remembered what Life is really about, remembered what's important and what's not. I felt the water falling over my skin, washing away all those dark thoughts that aren't mine. I listened to my favorite music (yeah, 30 seconds to Mars) and remembered that life is worth everything else; that music, art, sky and ocean are worth living. We are all going to die anyway, why not enjoy the ride while we are in it?

I love how 30 seconds to Mars's music always makes me feel better, no matter how down I am, no matter the lyrics... their music sings to my soul and wakes me up, makes me smile, makes me strong.

I know there are people out there who truly care about me, who truly love me, who would be crushed if something bad happened to me and who are happy when something good happens to me. So what if a lot of things suck? When there is love in your life you can keep on moving to the end of the world and beyond.

And I need to say some words to someone special:

Thank you, sis. You are a light in my life and I love you very much. You have been my golden best friend, my sister, for almost a year now and I am deeply thankful for your friendship and support. Te quiero un chorro, tú lo sabes. Gracias *inserte abrazo de oso*

Life sucks...

...and then you die.

Today for the first time in my life, I thought about actually killing myself. Don't freak out just yet, just read me. For a few minutes, too many if I may say so, I lost my will to live and thought that life was not worth to keep on trying. I couldn't breathe, the walls closed up around me and everything went dark. Why should I keep on fighthing? I felt I was not strong enough to live this life... I imagined putting the gun in my mouth, pulling the trigger and ending this once and for all.

But then I realized that, maybe I was not strong enough, but that I was brave enough to keep on living. I am not a coward, I don't want the easy way out. It wasn't even a realization... it was more like a feeling in my gut, that will to live, that resilience... that stupid stubborness that forces me to go on and not let myself fall.

It was really weird, you know, thinking about that, actually considering it. But it was interesting to walk those darker paths in my mind... why not tread them and know them so that they wont caught me by surprise someday? "Don't be afraid of what your mind conceives..." My mind just had a very morbid thought this morning. It doesn't scare me, it just makes me realize that I can do whatever I want but I would never take my life. I love myself enough to care.

To my green-eyed future...

Y luego en el silencio te diré: te quiero... y detendrás tu aliento sobre mi cara, perderás tu rumbo en mi mirada y se te olvidará la vida amándome...

The soundtrack of my life...

For the past 3 weeks, it seems everytime something happens to me, I found a phrase or an entire verse in one of Alanis Morissettte's songs that fits perfectly with what I am living or feeling. It's rather strange, you know... the soundtrack of my life right now is based entirely in her music.

There is so much strength, so much honesty, and light in her words...

"You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of what I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here..."

That's for you, my beloved... wherever you may be... Thank you.

El amante que necesito...

Esta mañana, hojeando una revista, me encontré con un artículo llamado "Sexy Zodiaco: tu guía astrológica completa para el amor, la sensualidad y el sexo." Lo más curioso de todo es que me describieron a la perfección, muahaha. Creo que sí soy bastante Tauro.

Bueno, el caso es que venía una sección que se llama El amante que necesitas (dícese pareja) y eso es lo que les voy a poner aquí, nada más para que chequen:

"El hombre con el que te comprometas debe hacerte sentir segura, deseas sentirte protegida y mimada. Él debe ser alguien confiable, debe mantener sus promesas y mostrar su lado sensible. Si le gustan los niños, será un gran punto a su favor. Definitivamente necesitas un amante hábil con un equipo físico generoso (jajajaja, lo siento, me dio mucha risa cuando leí eso) y, aunque te cueste admitir tu lado materialista, algo que no pasarás por alto es que sus ingresos también deberán ser generosos."

¿Cómo ven? jeje

Bueno, así que ya sabes, si cumples con estas características... búscame ;) jajajajaja.

P.D.- Creo que olvidaron poner que debe ser increíblemente guapo jijiji... Sí, ya sé... no quiero pavo también? Pues no, gracias, no como carne :P

Why cant we make this darkness feel like home...

I don't understand. Nothing makes any sense right now... Could someone please explain it to me? Could someone give me an answer, a meaning to this all? 'Cause my brain is so full of fog I just can't listen to myself...

Every freaking breath burns me like hell...

Starry-eyed me?

Hell, yeah. I am a starry-eyed fallen angel, so what? My eyes see into infinity and I like to fall apart. Does anyone have a problem with that?

This doesn't make me less wise or more unstable. It just makes me who I am, who I really am. I'm an freaking romantic: always reaching out for the unattainable, the mistery, the Night... the dark beyond the stars.

The voice of a thousand drums calls me into the wild, into His forest... into His arms. This longing for Him is ever present and I can't get rid of it. But it's just part of who I am too.

So I may be lost right now... or maybe I'm just shedding my old and now useless skin. And it's a painful process and it takes a lot of courage and strength to do it. And sometimes I get really tired, cause it seems the old skin is heavier than I thought... and other times it feels like that old skin is safer than the new one. But I don't want it anymore. It wasn't my own skin in the first place.

So, yeah, everything's a little messy right now. My feet are in the mud but my eyes are in the stars. And my heart is bleeding, beating, calling for you...

"The rhythm of this trembling heart is beating like a drum... it beats for you, it bleeds for you... it knows not how it sounds... for it is the drum of drums... it is the song of songs..." -A.L.-

Starry-eyed me? But of course... I am an entire universe walking on this planet... When was it otherwise?

Sincronicity

A song I've already listened to weeks ago mutated before my very ears this morning. I've had a part of it dancing in my head, again and again, until I had to play the damn song in my stereo... and so I pushed the play button and the melody started, and then Paula Cole's voice filled my room and her words pierced through the fog in my brain and touched my already tender heart... and I melted down and started crying all the frozen tears that had been crushing my heart for far too long.

The song is called "El Greco" and it's in Paula Cole's new album, Courage. Here it is:

I’m black on blacker velvet,
Milk skin and veins,
Like some El Greco painting,
So full of pain.
So full of longing for light of day.

I thought I knew who I was in the world.
But here I am twice blind at being born,
Crawling to my buried voice, within.

And I’ve forgotten who I used to be.
And I’ve forgotten the woman in red,
Living her dream.
And I’ve forgotten the courage I used to be.

Happiness is overrated,
It never lasts.
Skating the surface of oceanic depths.
Oh may the fruit of my life be meaning.

So please forgive me all my seriousness,
My so-called spirituality,
I’m just a mess.
I’m tears and anxiety,
But I’m unafraid to See.

And I’ve forgotten who I used to be,
The leader in her glory shining, divining.
And I’ve forgotten, the courage I used to be,
The middle passage is so damned humbling,
persona crumbling,

I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know.
And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try, and I try.
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know,
And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try, and I try.

Like some El Greco painting,
No sun or sky.
No lantern, no candle needed to light,
The holy radiance behind the eyes.

And I’ve forgotten who I used to be.
And I’ve forgotten the woman in red, living her dream.
And I’ve forgotten the courage I used to be.

I don’t know...

I want to be free from desolation and despair...

I have forgotten what is was like when the smell of wet earth made me happy... when all it took to make me smile was to watch the rain fall down or stand under the trees at night and let the breeze sway me with them...

I have forgotten a lot of things because I stopped believing... I dont believe anymore and it has been many years that I've felt this way. And now that I want to believe again... no, it's not that i "want" to believe... now that I NEED to believe again I can't; a knot is tied around my heart like a prison with thorns and it crushes my chest everytime I feel something close to hope or love or light... and it won't let me breathe... and it has turned my life into a terrible ocean of dark and strong undercurrents where there's no light nor air nor a single moment of peace... and I can't find the way out.

I'm drowning in myself... I have lost myself...

Maybe I should stop holding on so hard and let myself fall deeper into darkness... maybe there I will find my light, on the other side...

Questions...

"And I don't know where to look...

My words just break and melt...

Please, just save me from this darkness...

please, just save me from this darkness..."

I don't know why we are alive. If a brain is all there is to us, if when it dies we dissapear, the very things that made us who we were cease to exist, why are we here then? What's the point of it all?

If I believe myself to be special is being a megalomaniac, if seeing my Horned Lord in the forest is just a hallucination, if true love doesn't exist but in my wildest dreams... why is it worth to be alive? What do I live for in a world where no one believes in magic anymore? Where there is nothing sacred or mystical left?

In a world ruled by money and economic power... why am I here? Why?

I don't want to live in a world where you don't exist, my love...

I just don't want to...

30 Seconds To Mars - A Beautiful Lie

Check out the new 30 seconds to mars video.

It's absolutely beautiful and it was worth the wait and the delays. Please, when you are done watching, enter http://abeautifullie.org/ and join us in saving our planet.

Some facts about the video:

The crew refused to set foot on the glacier because it was deemed too dangerous

The weather was so cold that taking your hood off for a minute could result in frostbite. Their hoods were off for the entire video.

39 hours of film were shot. 5 minutes of slow motion were used, all and all about 1:59 of footage.

It was filmed from a helicopter by amatures, because of the dangerous conditions on the actual iceburg

The black lines you see in the video are huge slits in the ice. Thousands of others are unseen. The glaciers were literally breaking under their feet.

If you look closely during part of the video you can see pools in the glaciers. These are water pools from the glacier melting.

At one point (Though edited out) Jared slips and starts to fall down the slippery hill. He saves himself about 20 feet from falling off the cliff.

It took almost a year to plan, took a week to film, and 6 months to edit.

Jared directed, (partially) paid for, and edited the video himself. He edited it on 3 different countries while filming his new movie Mr. Nobody.

The original idea was to film in Antarctica, and the crew wanted it filmed on a green screen. Jared refused to back down and Greenland was eventually chosen for the video (And no green screen was ever used)

The idea of the video was to show the world what we're losing by not caring about the environment. These beautiful glaciers are melting, and aren't only effecting those who live by.

The band had to carry all of their own equiptment on and off of the helicopter. In the scene with the flags, the helicopter caused so much wind that Shannon's drum set would go flying 30 feet away.

192 kinds of insurance were required to shoot the video.

It was so dangerous that the helicopter crew said if not returned to the chopper at a certain time, they would leave without them and the band would have to sleep on the glacier.

When Jared got the tapes to edit, the company gave him the wrong playback machine. He had to pay thousands of his own dollars to rent the correct machine.

For every pound of carbon emissions, they purchase green tags to offset the environmental damage.

100% of the proceeds from this video go to THE NRDC (natural resources defense council)