Back again

Wow, it's been almost a month since I last wrote here. And it wasn't a very happy entrance, btw.

But whatever, I just got back yesterday from a trip to Monterrey to visit my brothers and rest of the family: birthdays and catholic religious events which I dont agree with, but great time, a lot of laughs and love and memories (and maybe one or two dirty jokes). This trip was my last thing to do before making a big decision. My last excuse for delaying things.

Now I'm back and there are a thousand possibilities jumping at me from the future. And it's getting somewhat scary and uncomfortable. I've been in a comfortable zone for a long time. But I know that Change is now a necessity for me, something I really need and want (deep inside) to do. I still think I should have gone to Montreal this summer (it would have been a lot of fun) but things happen for a reason. I just hope he's still thinking of coming to Mexico this fall. But that's another story.

I know I messed up when I picked up my career but now I have a chance to correct that mistake. I think I'm gonna take it. I've always loved Psychology.

And Halo 3 is coming out in just a month!!! That makes me SOOOO happy!!!! ;) And Mass Effect is coming out this year, and Eternal Sonata and Assassin's creed and Metroid Prime 3 and and... but I digress.

I'm not thinking clearly. I have a storm of emotions raging inside of me right now so I'm gonna have to go.

Amazing

Wow, guys can be real jerks sometimes.

30 Seconds to Mars - Was it a dream?

Extremely happy and satisfied!!!!!

Ok, maybe you won't think the reason I'm in this state right now is too big of a deal but... I just finished reading the LAST book of the Harry Potter series and I must say: IT IS AMAZING!!! GLORIOUS!!!! I bow at your feet, J.K.Rowling!!! You have done a masterpiece and blasted up all my expectations!!!!

I don't want to say anything about the contents of the book because maybe you, dear reader, are a fan and haven't finished the book or don't have it yet and I don't want to spoil the pleasure of finding out by yourself the end of the story. (By the way, is anyone actually reading this blog at all???? It wouldn't hurt if you left a message once in a while, you know?)

And yes, it was a pleasure reading this book - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - a pleasure full of laughter and grief and tears and excitement and thrill, and moments when I actually said aloud "NOOOOO!!!!"" or "WHAT THE HELL????" or "YES!!!". I loved this book. Can't you tell? hahaha. I have to go... I want to read it again.

Just talking

I think I am a little crazy. Of course, we all are in our own unique way, which is wonderful, unless it becomes something pathological. But that's not something for me to talk about. I say I am a little crazy because I like to say it; I like how it sounds. I like the way I see my world, the way I create my universe. I want magic in my life, to be able to sense the flows and interconnections that surrounds us and link us with each other and everything else on the universe.

I want meaning. I don't care about things that don't mean something to me, that don't touch my heart or set my soul on fire. I need motivation or else, I lose interest very quickly. But love is different... since love is the energy most meaningful in my life and sets my entire being on fire, once I love someone, I am the most loyal and constant companion. And many other things. ;)

But why am I talking about this? Hmmm...

Ahh, who cares? If you want to know what would make me fall in love with someone, I'm not gonna tell you. You'll have to find out by yourself.

I'll have to wait and see what life has in store for me.

Annoyed and sad...

I really really hate it when people say they are going to do something and then don't do it. Why do they do that? If they can't, why can't they say so? Or if they don't want to or don't intend to do it, why say it in the first place? It's really annoying and the worst part is that you stop believing in their word. And that is a sad thing to happen when you care about someone.
ARGGGHHH!! It makes me mad!!!!

And the fact that I am feeling extremely vulnerable right now only makes it worse. My grandma died last week and I'm still in shock. I feel so weird, so... I don't know. It feels like the dam is threatening to break inside of me but it doesn't break. I cannot cry.

We are all One

A couple of days ago, I saw a movie called "One" (Todos Somos Uno, in Spanish). It's actually a documentary made by some amateurs who knew nothing about making films, but went out to the world and made one anyway. A great one, actually. This film is about the meaning of life, Oneness, and the rich tapestry of diversity that permeates this planet, like a web. I really really recommend it. Each and every one of us should watch it. You can find it in Blockbuster.

But what I wanted to post here are the words of one of the persons who appears on this film: Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev. They asked him about Oneness, about Unity, and he answered something that moved me deeply, and I thought, well, if we all could see Life like this, that would be the end of violence.
Here are his words:

"We are all unique. Each one of us is different. And it's so wonderful that we're different. We may spring from the same Oneness but, as human beings, as
individuals, every one of us is unique. We are different. That's what is beautiful about us.

So, at least, let's enjoy the difference. If you learn to enjoy the difference, if you see that every human being is a unique human being... Only once in the whole eternity, only once this kind of human being happens. You cannot find exactly this kind of human being anywhere else in the existence, anytime in eternity. Only once. That is true with yourself, with your friend, with your enemy, with your loved ones and the ones you hate. All of them are absolutely unique.

Anything that you see as unique, you value it. Anything that you value, you have no problems with it. And Oneness will happen out of that.

If you being to enjoy the uniqueness of life, Oneness will happen out of that."

And just to finish, I also want to share with you the words of another person, a writer called Frank M. Robinson, who wrote one of my favorites novels: The dark beyond the stars. He said: "If we are alone in the universe, with what respect should we treat each other and the rest of the life forms that inhabit the fragile Earth?". I would only add: Even if we are not alone in the universe... Life is still precious and rare, don't you think?